Thanks girls for the support.

I know that they wont help me achieve twins medically, they already know medication works for me so they'll just tell me to keep taking that. So basically if it's going to happen it has to be natural/meant to be, I was just hoping there was some herb or something that could help.

Mummydreamer - I know I have a better chance than some people because I've had fraternal twins in the past, I also know a few other thing work in my favour, eg. they say that the more pregnancies you have the more likely you are to have twins and my next pregnancy will be number 4.
I know you said you were lost to, hoping for something specific to finish your family and having it taken away. If you find yourself first (if it's even possible to find our way in these circumstance) let me know the "secret" please.

I've also heard that B/F help with twins and I'm planning on B/F DD for another couple of months (if she doesn't bit me) but DH doesn't want to start seriously TTC yet and it's so frustrating because he knows how much this means to me.

I've already decided that next time I become pregnant I'm going back to my psychologist so hopefully she can help with this too.

I guess I just have to leave it up to want happens, happens and just hope it works out for me. I'm just so scared that I wont be able to be happy with want ever happens. I already feel so angry and cheated about how much has been taken from me, I just want something to go a little bit right for me, for once (of course I'm happy with and love my DD very much, it's just that I still feel like I need something else).