Hi Milly5,

Thanks so much for replying, I really appreciate it.

Yes, I have chronic depressive illness so PND is just an addition to that. I have a psychiatrist and psychologist. I find them really great at times, though not overly supportive of breastfeeding I have to say. The message I keep getting from them is to gradually wean. As for bottles etc, my DH will wash and prepare them (he is very supportive) and he'll do nights, so it will definitely be less work. But when BF is going well, I feel so happy to do it. It is hard. I can't be sure about what is best for DS too, because half the time he is screaming blue murder against feeding and the other half, very settled and loving it. I have to say, the overall pattern is shorter feeds and not so into it. He is 8.5 months old now and very outgoing and busy and not a comfort feeder or a cuddly baby. He just loves his toys and new things.

Also, my son is feeding again, but for shorter periods and it is still pretty touch and go, like he is snuffly and will break off and scream. I now have mastitis on one side too (a recurrent issue).

I had just written out a plan to wean and then the mastitis again.

Going to meditate right now.

thanks again,
WW
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