Well... I did it. I accepted the second job. Then I phoned the other boss this arvo and said that I wasn't the person for the job.

I explained that the job needed someone with energy who wanted to dig their nails in and get busy. I wasn't the person for that job. I said that the nurses were exhausted and the staff didn't know what was happening next, that wasn't where I am right now and what I need. He was disappointed, and I feel like crap atm... but its the right thing for us as a family and for what we want to do.