The thing about these toxic workplaces is they use a form of emotional blackmail to make you feel guilty, responsible and incompetent rather than accepting that it is their workplace and environment that is the problem. You have done the right thing by leaving - and I'm so glad your DH is so understanding and supportive. If you want to chat just pm me. And remember we've been assured of "sustenance and covering" even though we sometimes wonder where it will come from