hi all

thanks michelle and kellee for your thoughts of our dear jessica yesterday, it was a hard day gosh i can't believe she would have been 7, it seems to get a bit tougher each year. jay was sweet and told me not to worry as i still had him and now we have lani. we lit her special candle and my lovely neighbour bought us a special candle as well so that was nice. dinner was okay kids were tired and cranky and paul didn't come cause he wasn't feeling well - he is off work today arhhhh ](*,) at least i get to drive the new car lol.

lara - it is so frustrating when they don't eat and has michelle said even more so for you. how about letting her feed herself - it will make a huge mess but it might just help. i try and give lani what we are eating and as soon as i put the spoon to her mouth she clamps up and shakes her head no - so i just give up and give her the bowl and quite often she eats it - with her fingers, as soon as she starts tossing the food over the highchair i get her out and say no more - hopefully she will get the hint. i also have a jolly jumper but hardly use it - it's okay lani likes it but i just keep forgetting to get it out - the health nurse said once that if they can't bear weight on their legs then to put them in it to dangle not have there feet touching the ground. it won't be long that alana is weight bearing her legs - lani is just starting to do it now and is very wobbley.

michelle - glad to see josh had a good party and you got out of it quite cheaply. and no auskick did not come = wrong week arhh the timetable siad the 23rd they must of changed it - apparently next week. yes shane crawford does seem to be quite arrogant but i just like his face and body lol and his hair he has a school boyish sort of charm to him lol. good to see you had a goodnight saturday night. oh and i love subways - the terriaki chicken yum yum - i always get a 6" but i reckon i could finish off a 12" but am to embarressed to order a big one lmao.

kellee - glad the gig went well. hows the weather up in qld, hopefully it is nice and sunny and all the bugs down here in melbourne are not up there lol. you sound really busy at the moment, what a bugger the abc didn't record it - hopefully next time.

well i am a little nervous well a lot nervous actually, you see i went to the doctor about 2wks ago as i wasn't feeling right, tired and lethagic and just not right, i also had a lump in my neck that i was ****ting myself about - well the doctor examined my neck and she said all seemed to be okay and explained it was more likely a swollen gland however she sent me off for a full blood test to rule out any nasties. she also included in the test to check my rubella (apparently it was low when prg with lani although i only had a booster done in 2001) also iron levels and my thyroid - she said not to worry if anything was amiss on the blood test she would send me a letter to come and see her. well i got a letter from her today saying i need to see her as i have an abnormal result, holy cow i am shaking i am so scared it is something really bad i feel like crying, i just hope that it is my iron levels or rubella, i am going to see her after kinder drop off tommorrow at 8.40am so please fingers crossed everything will be okay.

well i better go and look busy seeing as paul is home sick - apparently he might even have tommorrow off ](*,)

have a good day/night everyone