AnnaChas - Faaarrrrk so my cover has been blown huh? Welcome to BB, I hope you get some support here and find a mummy group. Doesn't mummy guilt just suck? I had it big time about not being able to breastfeed. Felt kinda guilty for putting my needs above DD1, but I had to in the end. We just gotta do what we gotta do!

No DTD here either, I had an epi and oh God sometimes it still hurts. (There is no such thing as TMI on BB ). Plus the idiot doctor who sewed me up did it crooked . I haven't had the 6 week check up yet but kinda looking forward to it... it will be the last time I have to drop my dacks, after that I can get some of my dignity back that I lost at the birth.
Ha! Found you! Just kidding!

Yes, mummy guilt sucks big time. The past few weeks have been getting better, but the last day or so has been the pits. I'm blaming the weather for it.

I got an epi too - something I didn't want to get done, but I was getting a fever, my blood sugar was going a bit funny and the baby was getting a little stressed. My doctor was great though - she took her time and sewed everything up fantastically, and it's all healed up which was nice. DH says it was one of the weirdest things he's ever seen being done! I was just glad he didn't pass out during the birth. Funnily enough, that was one of my main concerns!

I know what you mean about losing your dignity. By the start of the second night when I was in hospital waiting for the induction to work, I forgot all about my dignity!