Hi girls,

Melsta- My immediate thought when reading about Ali being sick is its probably from her immunisations last week, the gurgling stomach sounds like the rotovirus which they gave them orally. Poor little girl i hope she gets better soon.

Theres lots to catch up on again so my apologies if i dont personal you girls.

Tasha- The soy did clear up her skin. In a matter of days. It was amazing. How cute you got Lucy's ears pierced.

Lea- I hope Gab starts to settle for you soon.

Kell- My energy burst lasted quite a few days, has slowed down again though. 6.4kg!!!!! Far out Chardonnay is 4kg.

Danielle- Sorry to hear about the high score on the scale. I did mine today and scored high too. I hope it all gets sorted out for you easily.

Erin- We havent had special cuddles either. Its not that i dont want to, but for some reason i just cant bring myself too. I feel like my body is so different now in so many ways and im not sure im totally comfortable with it. Just everything is different, smaller boobs, no belly, and things smell and look different.

Me- For some reason ive hit a downward spiral and i can feel im right on the verge of a big crash and burn. I was awake at 3am this morning feeling on the verge of tears. Im so cranky and irritable and i can feel myself shutting down from everyone, including C to a certain extent. I did the pnd score today and scored high. Im just so over everything. Mainly my health. My stomach is still sore. Im on strong meds that are not working at all. And i feel like i keep going to the dr to get results only to find myself with no answers having to go back a week later. Out of the blue yesterday too i decided i didnt want to breastfeed anymore. I just cant handle people in my personal space at the moment. Im just so irritable all the time, i cant sit and relax into feeding, i want to be up and doing something. I dont know where this came from cos i was enjoying it.

C had her needles today and the poo's from the rotovirus have already started. Shes slept alot today, which is a change from the last 2 days of her being irritable. I told the dr about me thinking she has reflux and he told me to give her infant gaviscon. Im not sure if its working or not yet. We are trying her on goats milk formula this week. Its between goats milk and soy i think.

I hope you are all well