Squidipa ~ I would keep going with the showers because doesnt he have them with his Daddy? Good bonding time for them. Maybe a massage with Lavender oil when its time for bed? Just don't use too much!!!!
Also, Brauers have a liquid called Calm. Its all natural. May help if Josiah is restless.
thanks for the advice, No dadda does floor time that time and the usual lap time and that but showering is my time with him only cause hubbie is scared to drop him and cant wash him one handedly like me. But him doing floor time works best for me as i forget i knwo bad momma!

I once again tried the pram with pretty little success if ya can call maybe 30 mins sucsess enough time to fold a few towels thats about it.

Washing washing washing its incredible especially with the 3 year old liking to dress him self and be so independent
I tell ay what sometimes i think where is my next lo of energy gonna come from always on the go with josh and the 3 year old being left out and the otehr two and not enough sleep. yeah i do get more sleep maybe than some of you but i have always needed 10-12 SOLID hours obviously not getting that if i just close my eyes for just a moment like 2 mins i will be asleep its scary. josh feeds 2 hourly taking 40 mins a feed then settling but never really go far from me and its all back on. i guess i should be happy after the 10-11 feed he goes off till 4 or 5 mind u i wake him at this time to feed him cause normally by 9 he is down.
this sound bad but the last 3 days i have been living off off a whole custard tart daily eaten through out day and maybe bread in evening but for most day the tart. gotta go feed time AGAIN!!!!

BTW all day only got few loads washed still need to hand em all out and folder maybe two loads but did bring i another 2 loads but i had to let josh cry during that time. I knwo once again terrible mom but what else can i do. My back is sore from carrying him constantly