Does anyone feel clucky like they want to try again in about 8 months or so??? Or am I weird!
hehe i must be CrAzY but yep me i do. Dunno why but yep totally CRAZY i know. Think cause i come from a large family that i must have one myself or else i dont feel complete. Ppl say if you have kids to feel complete you will never stop contradicting myself here but i gotta agree. I dunno how mom kept the house so spotless and clean and kept food in our tummies when everything was all good growing up. With 5 kids and our friends in tow. Congrats to my MOM!

As for me and babies i fear always will this be my last i dunno just before delivering i found a cyst attached to the vaginal wall. I told dr's and midwifes in hospital no one looked was just pushed off the topic. My sister has cancer of the cervix so i was and obviously am worried. Was told to get it check after bleeding at my 6 week check so gonna try to get it looked at this week.

In saying all that..... i fear what if Josiah is my last, Question is would i be happy with that I dunno. I don't think i would be. Yet, i cant even say when or what number would be enough. Then i think well with a ratio like what we had with Josiah, every year that ratio is worse do we even bother or not. Then i think we are put here on earth With an ability to have children if i want them shouldn't i just have them.... God says be fruitful!!! So hrmmm makes me question myself more. Then $$$$ can we afford it hrmmm. then i say Money in nothing all we need is LOVE now my heads off and singing do do do do Love Is All We Need! Love is all we need! Love is all we need!
But then its like just cause i have the ability that doesn't mean every one whom can should. Also my abilitie comes at great costs to my health.

Then i am like gee woman get ya head outa the clouds 4 is enough isnt it and you don't exactly carry babies well in pregnancy. Fair enough kitty, i say to myself, that might be the case but Every pregnancy is Different and so are the symptoms. Then i wonder if i don't have time now heck what would it be like. I dunno where my mom found the time and energy to cope.

Sorry kiwi girl i just wanted to give a full answer lol!

I am getting an ultra sound to morrow as the dr is concerned over how much protein there is in my body when i dont eat high protein foods or much meat. Hope they find what ever is wrong with me If they cant find anything then w cant fix anything hey

Gonna leave the 3 year old with the ex while i get scanned and take josh with me!! I hope he sleeps.

Hey kel how are ya??? MT are you alright?