Lauren, i dont balme you for wanting kids to the same dad.

i'm pretty much the most fertile person i know, so hurl all the birth control my way.
Tia was an accident. and then a year later alisha was another one. both times, getting preg was not in the picture. i'd been off the pill for almost a year when i found i was already 21 weeks with mirani! so glad i had her when i did. if i'd had her 2 -3 years ago when leesh was little i would have totally lost it.

almost dp and i had it out last night and didnt talk at all until sometime this afternoon. i almost couldnt keep the tears in at mums this afternoon. my dad picked up that somethingwasnt right and asked if i was ok, and told him i didnt want to talk about it ans that everything was fine. my parents raised me to be a strong independant woman who stands up for herself and for what is right and to take no crap. but i dont know where that person has gone.


take care