hey ladies!

'bow: aww im thinking of you honey. i hope bella is ok...i hope your ok too

Moose: wow interesting day! what supprise did your DH give you? as for sleeping daz is in a warm jump sute with 3 blankets (well a cotton sheet, cot blanket, cot quilt (thin donner my aunt made him!) and then another warm blaket...the only reason for that many layers is its been REALLY cold. im SO glad he slept with me last night...it was the coldest apirl night on record! it was something like 2deg C or something!
you didnt step over the line. i understaand. this women is just...how do i explain? she's kinda in the same boat as i am - her son was a 'supprise' but...she seems detached. and she expects him to sleep though the night, self settle and just...i guess wake, feed, play sleep. thats it. she was annoied that her hubby always picks their son up...like she didnt seem to talk to her son or play with him while he was awake at MG...i know im on the other side of the fence and im very gentel...but i think all bubs need to be held and cuddled...yes they need 'alone' time (daz gets that for 15mins or so a day if i need to do something) but...babys need people...i watched a show that showed they try to get attention and how it affects them even early on if they dont (as in they withdraw and become really depressed and dont assosiate with people) but thats how i do things, if she wants to do it her way she can. the rest of the MG are a little with her and he methords too...

jords - i guess i had the co-sleeping to cot sleeping made easyer with our hospital stints. but i've found that day time = cot then night time was in bed with me. and now its late night feed - cot- middle night feed = bed with mum. and its working...slowly...but it may be he's in bed with me at night again after what the LC said to me! aww about winters cold i hope she gets better. they do say that a mothers touch can be very healing! cuddle away! no halm in cuddleing is there?

Anthiea & Moose- i cut darrens little finger whilest trying to trim his nales...poor mite didnt ever notice! typical daz!

sterla- im with you i've had a few flat days too. sometimes its going though the motions..then daz will do something and im ok for a while KWIM?
at the LC we tired to attach daz but he was really hungry so it didnt really work...but we're going to work on it! she said a girlfriend of hers had the same kind of issues and by 6months she was fully b/fing - gave me hope! how exciteing looking at carpet & paint. i'll warn you - get a sample of the paint and paint the wall (in a few spots) in the colour you want 'cus sometimes they dont trun out (darrens room was a good examle of that!...it was ment to be a soft yellow but turned into a hi-vis yellow due to the black pigments ...dad thinks it was due to the colour under..dispite the TWO undercotes...)

AFM: went to see the LC today. she's fantasic. she really is. she asked how our stay went in hospital (she admited us..) and i told her and cried. i think it may have been 'cus i was back there again. but she listened. she also told me i was doing good and told me i was going to get there...that the speechie was wrong about the b/f and daz would have more control of the flow with b/fing...cus the only time it dribbles out is with the let down! so i felt better about that. she also gave me a prosription for motilum. she said that its good and it wont make me depressed the other one they use can. she also gave me another nipple sheald to try and help it say on to help darren. i told my LC about the stay in hospital, about the head of nurseing and how she changed things with out talking to myself or DH. and about how she talked to me and guess what? SHE WAS MENT TO CALL IN A DIETITION! i could aruge that she could have endangered daz with the LACK OF FOOD...i think i'll feel better once i write a compaint letter. now i feel valid for being so angry at her! i go back to another LC next tuesday toget another script/ see if i can do any B/Fing and then book in again with the one i've been seeing...she said next time we'll sit down and talk it out because what happend in the paed ward...as she said "relaxed mum - relaxed bub" i better go get the dishes (or some of them!) done before DH gets home. i hope every one is having a good day!