This is just a quicky as Bella's on my lap and won't go to sleep even though she's tired!

Jayne - I had the rod thingy for around 18 months and for the first 12 months it was fantastic. After that though, I got really depressed and DH told me to get it out, saying "he wanted the old me back". As soon as it was out, I was back to normal. It was really wierd. I just felt down and sad all the time towards the end. I've heard others who have had no problems whatsoever as well, so I think everyone's just different. The beauty of it is that if you do have a bad reaction, then once it's taken back out the symptoms go straight away, unlike the needle. Also, I put on a fair bit of weight too - could have been that I'd just hit 30, or it could be the rod. I did need to put the weight on, so it wasn't an issue for me.

For those who are unhappy or disappointed with the the birth of their babies, all I can say is that you did what you had to do at the time, all in the best interest for you and your baby. The most important thing is that both you and your bub are happy and healthy and you did what any good mother would do in that situation. My first daughter's birth was a bit of a horror (posterior bub, ventouse, 2nd degree tear and a lovely haemorroid to boot!), and at the time I wished it could have been better, but she's now 9 and is happy and healthy - more than I could ever ask for. I beat myself up about the b/f thing with both of my daughters too, but soon realised that doing that was not doing them (or myself) any good. I should just be grateful that she is happy, and thriving. Many women aren't so lucky as to give birth to a live, healthy baby (my SIL is an example) so I should be very thankful for how things are.

Again, no personals sorry!!! We went out today and bought some baby panadole ready for tomorrow's needles. I am so not looking forward to it. Will post afterwards, all going well!

Got to go - Bella needs me!