people in my life are not *****y and as far as they know I am basically at my prepregnancy weight, a HEAP of people didnt see me in the 3 months I was 15kg lighter as I was still wanting to be another 5 or so lighter.... (so in their minds i am in my prepregnancy clothes but in my mind they are my fat clothes...)

i am not worried at all about what people will think of the way i look as the fat really is 'baby fat' it really is in a different spot than it was when i was "fat" last year

my problem really is that i am putting a heap of pressure on my life starting or changing when i lose the weight....
does that make sense?

am thinking about religion at the moment while thinking about christianing and Jem's future.... I am uniting and hubby is catholic and his family strong catholics so i have awkward decision....

study a good idea but i dont really ever plan to go back to work and if so it would be in 6 years time maybe and by then anything i learn now would need to be refreashed.... i will think about it though... something to think about other than babies would be good..... i guess that is where it is hard too all my friends have actually had babies in the last 3 months there have been 4 or 5 of them so friends i could have escaped to also talk just babies!

glad the funeral went 'well'... my neighbours dad's funeral was last week, her baby was awesome at it thank goodness....
what kind of car are you getting?