Ellie's tooth has come up so I can actually see it, and there's just one there. So one tooth for now. I did my senior first aid today, was easy. Got WIRES tomorrow. Its all the way at Picton, about 1.5 hours away. So instead of getting T to drive me at 7am when he finishes work after midnight tonight, I'll head out west to Penrith to meet another lady and we'll carpool. So two looooooong days ahead of me. T has been a bit of a bum to me. He hardly talks to me, when I finally get home, and hasn't touched me at all in 2 days. And I asked him if he still loves me, and after 30 seconds looking at me, he didn't say anything. How does that make me feel? What am I supposed to do? I'm out all day catching buses or trains and working or studying and do I have to make all the conversation and effort to be with him? Yes of course I do! (sarcasm). I want to get some vinyl and iron-on labels for Ellie's things for when she has to be in care and what does he want me to do? Use a permanent marker. So on her clothes, her name or initials will be there forever. And now its not good enough to be sold or passed onto other family members. But iron-on labels can be removed (I think so, its a glue). And vinyl labels will stay on longer than permanent marker. But hey, he's the boss, even though I will buy them. God, why does he want to be such a cheapskate? Its getting worse. I don't know what to do with him. Sometimes I catch myself thinking that I might fall in love with someone new. When we met he was not like this. Its so hard for me to go through every day pinching pennies to make him happy. When we don't have any financial difficulties. No debt. So what's his problem?

Enough about me, OMG poor Jessie! How can they botch an NG tube like that? Only someone who's never done it before would do that. Or someone who's not supposed to. Ellie isn't eating or drinking as much milk as she should, but her gums are hurting her a heap. We just keep offering.

I have to go to bed, early start. Ghastly 5am. Groooaaaaan....