hi!

Hi Di!!!! happy half way to Brodie!
this 6 month thing has so come around fast huh?

and I hear you al on the PND thing. some days I just feel completley not myself.... just over it and I want a break. a few days ago I rang Dh at work and made him come home because I just wasn't coping and needed to just get out for an hour on my own, clear my head, etc.

so as soon as dh got home I jumped in the shower for an hour washed my hair, shaved my legs...and then went out for an hour.... just drove around for a bit listening to music (which I can't do when Luxxe is around coz it relaly seems to upset her) then went and bought a pair of sneakers as my last pair are dead - got them in 1999 and they're well and truly dead...

the sneakers are part of my walk somewhere everyday thing. I was reading about how walking and getting out can help with feelings of PND. IT's working for sure I reckon. just getting out of the house makes a difference. Also - I count walking around the shops or just window shopping in the city as walking...

I had a spack at dh the other day about how it's unfair that after nearly 6 months, i've only been out without Luxxe 3 times... for a grand total of about 5 hours. It's not that I want to be away from Luxxe... i just need a bit of space and time to be on my own and be my own person too IYKWIM.

I really wanted to do this rowing class, like for exercise... but do you think of their 25 classes a week, there was even 1 hour in the week whre DH was around to watch luxxe or it wasn't feeding time or sleeping time or some other parental thing that DH can't do and I have to do?? NOPE! either I had to do the 6am class or nothing. and 6am

It really bums me out when I think about it.... so I try not to. it's just how it is and I have to just deal with it... which is bl00dy hard sometimes.

anyway - sorry to vent.... it's just been upsetting me a bit lately. anyway - I'm making icecream and I have to go do the next part now the mixture has cooled.

OH remind me to tell you my icecream making story.

xxx
L