Hey everyone!

Hey Nik, glad you had such a great b-day!
Didn't know the first few months where so difficult for you
Sanders hair is growing back now, so he has this weird mix of short and long, light and dark.
We definately want another bub, but I wanna wait untill Sander is 1 year old and hopefully can walk, as I had sore back last pregnancy and i am not looking forward to having to carry Sander around whilst being pregnant. The newborn period doesn't scare me at all, accept the humungus lack of sleep (still going). I am more in serious shock about how big he's getting already!! Where did my little bitty boy go?? I am getting him measured and weight next wednesday (yikes!! Needles too!) and I am sure he's about 7.5 kilo's/ 66 odd cm as he was 6820 gram and 62cm 5 weeks ago. He no longer fits in h?s pram and we already had to upgrade him to a jogger!
he's also teething (no sign of the buggers tho, just heaps of chewing, drooling and crankyness!)
Thank God breastfeeding is going really well over here. Except for him throwing up heaps (he's taking in too much air I think as he doesn't throw up as much after a bottle)
Hopefully we can do it at least untill he's 6 months (both dh and I have some allergies) but I already know I will miss our feeds .

so I was sad saturday, when I had to upgrade Sander from pram to jogger he;s growing up way to fast for me! Time just flies by and it feels like I didn't take enough time to enjoy him when he was really tiny! Think I was just doing what I thought I was supposed to instead of dropping everything and just enjoy him. Makes me really sad. I mean this time is wonderfull too, and I am soo proud of him, but their only tiny for such a short time..

Does anyone else have these moments when the responsibilty for another person seems almost overpowering?? I can just all of a sudden think: OMG how am I going to do all this?? Can I give him a stable family? When I was a kid I always thought that when you're all grown up, you'll have everything figured out, no more insecurities. Boy am I in for a big suprise! I am suposed to be all grown up but the insecurities didn;t budge!
It can really freak me out sometimes. Luckily it comes in waves tho

OMG I just wrote a novel and was very selfish!

Sorry everyone! I hope everything is going well and I will be less selfish next time I promise.