Ok.

Here we go.

Ive just had the worst possible bad news once again in 3 months. As you all know my Mother is recovering from bowl cancer which was not in the linf glance so she has just been recovering from the big foot and half cut up her guts.

Next my sister had to have her gore stones taken out has she was in incredible pain. Then has had to cancelle her sons (daniel 17) specialist apportment for his swollowing problem that he has had for a while cause of her opp. So has to wait to get him in again. Not to mention that she has a DD 3 months younger then My DD and 2 years or so ago found out she was a diabetic and has to have insulin 3 times a day.

Then my father did his back in again, and has be relying on mum to help him. But she is still also recovering and still very sore.

I mentioned the other day that My sisters hubby was in hospital for lung cancer, well you have 3 parts of a lung, top, middle and bottom, they took the whole right side bottom part out as there was cancer the size of a golf ball. Well My mother just rang and told me that the results have come back and are in the linf glance. John his name is has to have radiation and cemo. We have no idea if he is going to live and My sister is devestated and understandable. I feel her life is just colapsing and there is nothing I can do. Im just so upset for her. My sister is 10 years older then me and we have never been close untill about 6 years ago and are now best friends. How do I help her with what she is going through. Im not good with death/cancer/health problems and tend to just break down and then In return im the one getting help.

So what im going to say now is NOT to hurt or p*ss anyone off I just think I as a person need to do it.

Last night some things were said, by ppl in here INCLUDING MYSELF that was not necessary. I think that we should all take a look at our self and understand that just cause we (your own self) might have good lives/heathly with no depression, where is others that just dont cope as we do. You also have to rmember that we are here to support and give information to eachother in this thread and we seem to be siding with eachother and making things worse. We are going to not agree with ppl and not like what ppl say and think BLA BLA BLA with what some one says but we have to learn to handle it and at least be sivel or maybe leave. I just know that life itself is to short, and im not going to come one here to fight with ppl as I fight with DD, DH Mum dad and really dont need it here.

So in doing that, Unless you really know me, what im about to do next is massave as im not one to back down but am going to bite the bullet, and have a bit of Humility.

I dont like some things that are said and have to understand that life isnt as easy for ppl out there.

Belle, Ok I dont like to hear about your PND as for one I really dont believe or should I say dont understand it as I have never been through it. I am piS*ed at myself for thinking bla bla bla about your moments and know it was wrong. I still dont Understand how some one can be so upset when you have children as they are so precious and just make me so happy. But I guess if you havent been through it then you dont know. SO that was the reason I wasnt replying to those post. SO in saying that. I appoligize and will in furture try and understand.

Lindsay, I too also need to appoligize to you for, yes ganging up on you. I to dont understand how some one who's huddy didnt work for so long (when you use to come to the vid shop he wasnt working)and you were always bragging how much you had spent, I think I added up in two weeks and it came to about $700 or so and wondered how on earth you could spend that much or have that much if no one is working. I thought you were just big noting yourself. For all I knew you should have had that money from heaps ago. I Just get mad at not just you but ppl in general about bragging their got this and this and this. Look I dont make out that Im poor cause to tell you the truth im not, but there is ppl in this thread that do stuggle alot and dont need to hear about how much you spent. I dont exspet you not to tell ppl but maybe just say some thing like "oh went shopping and had a GREAT shop" not nessaraly say how much it cost you. im one to give before I take and have been like that for about 5 years. Anywas just want to say sorry for thinking your were a liar about what you buy and how much you spend. Its really none of my business anyway.

There is nothing wrong with not liking ppl, there will always be ppl we dont get along with but at least we should be sivel in talking to them or meeting them and its more about us its about our kids playing and having a good time. This thread IS for them!!!

So if by chance ive affended anyone else here, please feel free to post (in public so all can see) and ill be happy to talk to you about it. I just know ive been horrible to those two.

Im just over the sh*t as some one else said and having such bad news I wanted to clear the air in what Ive done last night and in the last couple of weeks.

So that was very hard for me, but I feel as im a good person, needed to say that. I do want all our kids to be able to play together weather us mums like eachother or not.

Lets do it for the Kids.

SO im the first one!