Hi all, I'm feeling much more civil this morning, even though I am running on a sleep deficit. My munchkin definitely has a cold again - he was so snuffly this morning
I'm on the more cheerful side of the middle-of-the-night melodramatics - how come everything is so much more amplified at night? I mean, I still could have clocked DP, but the remarks for him that I had running through my head were savage - glad that I literally couldn't voice them or there would have been a mighty clash!
I have a very limpy voice back - I sneezed and loosened up some gunk that was obviously lovingly wrapped around my larynx and it came out with a blow of the nose...and I could sqeak out some words! Still can't talk properly, and being a singer I'm too scared of doing damage so I'll save my voice and whisper again today. Yay for the dislodging of gunky stuff!! My cough has diminished since then, too! Dee - that paed appt couldn't come quick enough, huh? I know the feeling - I had it when I was strung out to get Oscar's tongue-tie snipped once and for all! I hope I'm wrong, but I have a feeling that Lachlan's main problem is not your breastmilk. It sounds like (warning: armchair opinion imminent!) he needs to be held close to you (hug a bub style). Also, have you tried chest-sleeping? I know this idea horrifies many people, especially fans of separate sleeping, but if it is all that will settle a baby, why put you and the baby through the angst of doing the opposite of what the baby wants? Doesn't sound like it will interfere too much with your relationship with DF anyway (and he has fabulously failed to come up with any solutions himself, hasn't he?), so why not take a leap of faith? JMO though. You are in my real life thoughts, believe me, Dee This kid's gonna bring you so much joy to make up for this time! I am sure a hug a bub would help you so much.
Bath - glad I could provide some entertainment with my misery Maybe Ive been reading too much Marian Keyes, or maybe I like her so much cos her writing resonates with my thought patterns - take an unpleasant thing and make it ridiculous to save me from spinning into the path of negativity and unpleasantness.
gonna see if oscar will sleep while i shower with my MooGoo!!!!
Bath - yep i still have his cot propped up at one end. But it just doesnt make any difference.
IK - i have tried to have him sleep in my arms etc but he still wont stay asleep. Yes i am counting down to my paediatrician appointment thats for sure even though i have lost all faith in him too, last time he told me that babies cry and i should leave him to cry himself to sleep! (he was only four weeks old at the time!)
Guys - i have just had enough, i dont know what else to do. Sometimes i feel like he is changing and settling and then i have a day like today where he just wont sleep and i have just had it!
I try these new techniques etc and i really get my hopes up with them but then they fail and i just loose all hope.
I bought me and DF tickets to go and see Billy Joel in november thinking that surely lachlan will be settled by then and i can leave him with mum, but now i cant go to that. We also have a wedding to go to in november and once again, thinking lachlan will be settled i would leave him with MIL (she lives near where the wedding is) then i could go back between the wedding and reception to feed him then she can give him his night time bottle and then i would be home for the next feed but no, now i cant do that either seeing as i have to feed him sometimes every three hours, sometimes two sometimes one, i just dont know how he is going to be!
This kid's gonna bring you so much joy to make up for this time! I am sure a hug a bub would help you so much.
Maybe Ive been reading too much Marian Keyes, or maybe I like her so much cos her writing resonates with my thought patterns - take an unpleasant thing and make it ridiculous to save me from spinning into the path of negativity and unpleasantness.
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