Thanks for all the encouraging replies. Yes its a very hard time for all of us at the moment. I dont find it too hard physically as I am used to the fly in fly out business anyway. However when Rowen gets home now it is hard that he is staying at a mates and not at home. However it was my decision so I will just have to cope as best as I can.
I am not exaggerating when i say how wonderful these babies are. I know many parents say that but in this case its so true. I cant remember a day when they have just cried and cried for no obvious reason. I see my friends babies and I grimace and think "How would I cope with that X 2???" The twins usually wake for an early feed, about 4-5am. Then its back to sleep in bed with Mum. Then at 7 I get up and get their weetbix (yes they love them!!!), we have that in our groovy new high chairs (thanks daddy), then its a play on the floor while Mia gets ready for school. Back to bed at 8:30am after a feed usually until about 10:30-11am when they wake for another feed. My mum has them but they are never awake while I drop Mia at school and do errands in town. They have a play until about 12:30 and then its a quick sleep before we go get Mia in the afternoon. When we gethome they play on the floor and have a feed again. They have dinner at 5pm. I invested in a magic bullet blender. Oh my god they just love home made so much more than cans. But as Mia became quite constipated on homemade I have waited until this week to introduce real food. Jack taste tests all the food and he just goes mental over Chicken, peas, beans, carrot, corn, pumpkin and potato, with a touch of gravy! He yells and yells until its all gone! After tea they have abath and then a play before they have their bottles at 6:30pm. Usually after their bottles they play opn the floor but fall asleep so its bedtime at 7pm and I finally breath out and relax!! Mia is in bed then too so its perfect 'me' time. I lie with the babies quite a bit talking and playing with them and just cant believe how much personality they have. Jack rolled over at 4 months. He is so chubby but over he went. Charlee was 5 months when she rolled. Jack is up on hands and knees rocking. He goes back and forth and then throws himself forwrd. He thinks he is pretty clever! Charlee is watching him heaps now and she is starting to get the idea. They just adore eachother and they talk and coo at oneanother all day. There is definately a bond there!Jacky is a bit shy with people he doesnt know and will put his head on my chest and just stare at who ever is talking to him but not Charlee. She is a real social butterfly. She smiles and talks and squeals at anyone who will listen. They still get heaps of attention and she just loves it!
Anyway enough about them! Rowen and I. Well what can I say. I am very upset as you can imagine but have not been happy for quite a while. Rowen has always been a real boys boy. I guess being a footballer it comes with the territory. I have battled along with Mia alone for such a long time. I always felt like all he ever did was be with the boys and I had Mia so I wasnt included. I have resented him for that and it has slowly but surely eaten at the way I feel about him. I resent how blase he was during my pregnency with Jack and Charlee. I think one baby is special but for his wife to be carrying two babies, I just thought he would have gotten into it a bit more. We decided that we were not having anymore kids so this pregnancy was my last. I didnt even get card or flowers or anything when I had them or when we got home. Nothing. I am very much into that and he knows it. I got him a card and let me tell ya he just about got it where the sun dont shine!!! if I had a horse show, or a scrapping day/night, I always had to take Mia or organise a babysitter. Yet never ever while he played football did he ever ask if I was right with Mia. (of course I was but its not the point) Its all irrelevent now. He is devestated as he has always thought I would never leave. I guess he is a bit shocked as is everyone else we know. You just dont hear about people breaking up so soon after having baby/babies I guess! Oops! Anyway he is trying his hardest and I really hope for his sake he isnt wasting his time because inside I feel numb and have lost a lot of feeling for him. I did get 10 roses delivered today and that was very sweet.I guess only time will tell.
On a happier note, I witnessed a birth two weeks ago today. My best friend hose little girl was killed a few years back asked me to be with her and her hubby when their new baby girl was born. Oh my god I am in awe of those who have delivered naturally! What an amazing thing to witness! It was so special and I am so happy to have been there when Tenaye was born. And I was the third person to have ever held her!!! very special!
Anyway I have ranted a bit too much, just wanted you all to know about my babies and about my troubles!
Talk soon
Love Kel.
Have had a look at everyones babies and have read most posts. Every baby in here is gorgeous. So different, but all so gorgeous. I think we all deserve a pat on the back for a job well done!!!
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