Thanks Bec - some days I think I am going to go crazy......I don't think I have PND this time I just think I am heading down a slippery slope iykwim. I NEED time for me, and not just 5 minutes every now and then but rather a set time each week that I get to do something FOR myself....if I don't, I feel like I will have a brain explosion.

I feel lost as mum sometimes - like shouldn't I be more motivated to to do stuff? take the kids out for fun or get out the paints or play dough.........I find myself staying at home more and more lately and I don't do those activity's with the kids as it requires so much time and ENERGY....and the clean up .

I feel like my little ones are missing out on stuff I did when I only had 2, iykwim.

Anyway - thanks for your perspective on things - I am glad I am not alone on wanting to run away or hide. .

Hayley....who should be being a better house wife right now....but just cant be stuffed