o.k so I have a bit of a confession to make, as some of you already know I am also depressed, not sure if it is PND or just a general depression from many factors and ironically I was worried of actually telling people. I don't know what I am worried about but I just found it hard to admit to people that I didn't suspect was struggling as much as me.

A few things I have come to realise (thanks to the D and A area it is great you should consider it Hayley) is that I am not lazy cause I can't turn the telly off to do some house work, I am not lazy that I find any excuse not to do housework, that I am not lazy cause I have no motivation to tidy up and leave everything until the last minute that I am depressed....

Like Hayley I don't know what I want to do when I grow up, I don't know how to get my life into some sort of order and I only have 1 child, I honestly dont know how I would cope if I was to have another child at the moment so to you ladies who are pregnant again I think you are amazingly brave.

Anyway just wanted to put that out there....