Hi all,

While it may seem I've been absent the past couple of days, in fact I was on BB twice yesterday and both times I typed out long replies ... and both times BB went cactus and I lost the post. Good thing the second time round I saved a copy, so here tis (dated about 8.30pm Tuesday night ...)

Hi all,

I was on here earlier and lost my entire post when I went to submit ... !

Just wanted to wish to Flynn, Ollie and Seraya for today, and big wishes for tomorrow to Jake and Dusty!!!

Cam's first day of child care was today - I dropped him off around 11am and picked him up at 3pm. Cam was fine, but not so his mummy. When I walked out of the babies area, I made the mistake of looking back, and could see Cam crawling toward the gate I'd walked through. My last glance (of course I HAD to look back three times, didn't I ) was of Cam standing against the gate, looking for his mummy. I held it together till I was in the car, then I just kept thinking 'my baby has no idea why I'm walking away from him, and not to him ...'.

I cried till I got home, cried some more, then rang my sister, who went through this 2 months ago with her 15-month-old. And, I got over myself. No doubt I'll go through it all again tomorrow, but I'm sure by the time I go back to work (march 31) we'll all be dandy. I hope. I guess I just feel like my beautiful boy is no longer exclusively mine (and DHs, of course). That make sense? I've been so blessed this past 12 months, I just don't want this time to end. Guess I'm just feeling sad and sorry for myself, I'll be myself again in a day or two I imagine.

Apparently Cam was just fine. He ate all his lunch and slept for nearly 2 hours. He greeted me with a beautiful smile and crawled at hyperspace speed towards me. Ahhhh. That's my boy.

In other news, I took Cam to see Raggs (from the TV show) earlier today. I think he enjoyed it - at least he didn't grizzle, whinge or cry. He did his usual 'dancing' (rocking side to side) and clapped when he wasn't supposed to ... so I think it was all good. Thank God it didn't last longer than 30 mins though ... mummy was starting to struggle!

And finally, I had Cam weighed for the last time with the CHN. He's tipping the scales at 9.4kg and 79cm.

Jo - hope you got on ok with your appointment. Hope Riley has had a good birthday!

Laura - lovely to hear from you and congrats about your baby girl news. I think Amelie, or Milly, is a sweet name! Hope you get a good sleep very soon.

Hi to Bec, Mel, Nic and everyone else!

And here's my post today ...

Bec and Nic - hope your boys birthdays have been fabulous!

Second day at childcare went well for Cam - apparently he was happy all day, slept for ages and ate well. They reckon he hasn't cried, other than to grizzle a bit when they sat him in his highchair for lunch (he tends to cry when he knows his food or a bottle are just seconds away!).

M2W - what an awful time you've had lately. Am glad to hear you've recovered from your injury and Will is better. What a terrible childcare centre!! Have you reported what you saw?? Thankfully I couldn't be happier with where Cam is (well, I say that after all of 2 days!). But there's only 8 babies in his room with two very lovely ladies who seem to genuinely like the tots they care for. And the place seems very accountable, if you know what I mean. Anyway, enough about me! So glad that Will is getting on much better at his current centre.

Jo - glad to hear you got on ok with the psychologist. Hope you get the answers your looking for very soon.

I believe Cam is developing appropriately at his own pace. Suffice to say he's into everything, particularly if its got wheels and moves, and he crawls so quickly he sometimes almost goes ar$e over head. No idea when he's going to walk, but he stands every chance he gets and "walks" along couches/beds etc whilst holding on with one hand. Main thing for me is that he's usually happy ... and I absolutely adore how he freely and easily gives everyone cuddles and kisses. He's still only got two bottom teeth, he's BFing morning and night only (tho a very snotty nose in the past two days might see our BFing days drawing to a close!) and he sleeps well at night.

OK ... I'm going to hit submit and see if my post gets posted (third time lucky)

Andie xx