trina - i had 3 sessions with the PT, 3 days in a row. i was so exhausted. Fitness First then wanted me to sign up for more PT session at ridiculously expensive prices, 10 one hr sessions at RM1340 = AUD400. I dunno how much PT cost per hr in oz, but if you were living here and had to pay 1340 for 10 sessions, it's madness. i could do so much for that amt. she's showed me the machines etc. so i can do it myself. i used to go to the gym a lot years ago so i remember some of the stuff. i took a break today cos my muscles were so sore, i had trouble lifting and changing poopy. i might go for a swim tomorrow.
i was really upset yest, cos i was looking at myself during the workouts and i felt so fat and ugly.

bron - sorry i forgot to ans you the other day, lupus is under control, no flare ups but the skin on my face gets worse cos of the humidity.
how are you feeling now? are you still bleeding?
when does DH start his new job? how exciting! he'll spend more time with you.

danni - as the girls said dont worry. i used to and do worry about poopy not catching up but i realise he can only do it when he can. my friend's son only started to roll at 5-6mths, in BAby Love by Robin Barker, she said they can take up to 9mths. but dont worry, jazz will do it soon. anotehr friend's son only started crawling at 11mths. and a couple of mths later he was running around like crazy.
i feel i dont want poopy to grow up too quickly, i want to enjoy and savour his itty bitty stage. even more so since steve's back in syd. i dotn want steve to miss out too much. tho i managed to record poopy rolling onto his side today. he cant roll onto his tummy and he gets frustrated.

poopy was in his 00 in bonds suits 2 weeks ago. they were just nice. he's in 000s but they are not so loose anymore, they fit just nice. mind you he's already 19weeks so he's older and smaller than some of the babies here.

poopy is due for another feed, he seems to have dropped a feed and some feeds doesnt want most of his top up. it's confusing and frustrating me as im worried as to why he's dropping a feed. but he seems happy and he has enough wet nappies. and his poo is more breastmilk even tho he has 1 full formula a day, on top of bf+ff top ups. maybe the warm weather has increased my milk? i dunno. im drinking lots of water, i did so in syd but not as much as im here, i suppose. but then im losing water cos im sweating so much.
im too tired and cofnused. i miss my dh and am not sleeping well at all. i feel really sad cos i can never win, it's either or for me. backin syd, i miss my family and them seeing poopy. and here, i miss my husband and him seeing poopy. sometimes it's hard w my parents cos they dont have a good relationship and it gets to me. they dont talk to each other, they talk at each other. i grew up being the adult in the family and always trying to make things work. my brother went the other way and shut himself out of it.
so sorry for the rambling, i'd probably go on and on..
good night girls. xoxoxoxxo