trina - so happy for you.. looking fwd to more goss and pictures!!

poopy's heaps better.. we have the vapouriser running at tnight and he seems to sleep better too. maybe the air has more moisture too, and they can breath better. it gets so dry in winter.
he's getting cheekier and cheekier.. doesnt want to hold hands when walking, doesnt want me to feed him. he's learnt fr daycare to feed himself properly.. he shakes his head left to right when i try to feed him, but hten forgets when he's concentrating trying to get food on his spoon, so i get to feed him. so i feed him andhe feeds himself too. he's doing a pretty good job and not too mess.
he's also got this thing for shoes now. i have to keep looking for my shoes. he tries to wear them and walk around the house!! but only puts on his right foot. so i have one shoe in one room and the other some where else!


anyway, to whinge..
steve and i havent been so good. i got really upset the other day. i asked if i could have someone come clean the house as my mother's day present (emailed all the info etc) and steve said ok. and nothing's happened since. I waited and waited but nothing. so i asked him when is it happening. and he goes, i thot you were going to organising it.....
i said what's the point of a mother's day present if i have to do all the organising etc.
the whole mess in the house is because he puts stuff everywhere. im constantly cleaning and he's messing it up..... like, he leaves dirty utensils on the chopping board and i keep washing it up. ive told him even if you dont want to wash it up, can you pls leave it in the sick,(just need to turn around to put in the sink). so that it doesnt get all dried up and yucky and now lakshman is trying to reach for things on the chopping board. and Im worried abt knives etc.
everytime i get upset, he says he's sorry and will try to do better and nothing's changed. this ihas been going on for the last 5.5years.
i've told him many times a messy house gets me even more depressed on top my my PND.

I'm just so tired of cleaning and cleaning and getting the same results every time, and it's really getting to me. and steve makes promises and nothing changes.

i jsut feel everything abt the house is on my shoulders and cant cope anymore...

sorry for the long vent...