I have just decided that i am going to enjoy this time and not become a lunatic like last time (someone please remind me of this if you see the signs

The logical part of me knows this might not last, things can go wrong, etc, etc.

But why not enjoy it for what it is for today and tommorow and so on, so that is what i am going too do.

I always feel if i get ahead of myself too much i will jinx it, but i have no control over the biology of my body, and if something goes wrong then it was for a reason, even though i will still be very sad if it does.

Can you tell i am overtired and the day of emotions has caught up with me, i kinda feel like crying, just a big day...

Ok remember to remind me later about what i just said lol

Think i will still wait till i see doctor next week before i tell family etc, as i want to know everything is in the right place at least.

Ok i am now thinking if i post this then something will go wrong as its all so positive, ggggrrr at me.....

I will probally read this tommorow and think what the hell did post that for lol, but thats what its here for i guess


Night
Belinda

p.s - Shannon: Hope you and Jessalyn and family are going well, her test is coming up very soon isnt it??