Kellee and Nat, we have good and bad days, and the bad just outways the good I am afraid, how negative am I, I just can't help it. And to top it all off, just rang gyno re: results from papsmear and I have a low grade abnormality and need to have it checked in 6mths not 2 years. Just what I needed to hear, I am so sad and upset, I am so sick of my f***d up body it ain't funny. Had a scan yesterday on my wound too and I do have a pocket of fluid deep in my wound. I will talk to gp about it tomorrow in more detail, as that is all I know at present from the senographer.
Wonder what else could go wrong, so fed up! My SIL just said you need a break, and I said the way my luck is maybe I will get a break in my leg instead! Sorry havin a downer again.......
Oh Sheree I feelso awful for you. I bet between Shazz, Kellee and I we can sympathise about feeling so bad. I have to tell you I hated this whole situation for the first 6 weeks. It's OK to admit that, and it's better to admit it to someone who can help you. When you go to the GP tomorrow, do you feel comfortable talking about the emotional stuff as well as the physical stuff? It's really better that someone like that knows. They can refer you to proper help - even if you feel like you don't need it. I didn't but took it anyway and it really did help.
I know it won't make you feel any different but I have abnormal pap smears every time. I have been on 6monthy/yearly pap smears for nearly 10 years. Being prgnent was the longest I have put it off, and guess what? Yep it's come up again.
Sorry rambling - ignore if you can't be bothered.
Had a SHOCKER last night. Wouldn't sleep all day, not in the arvo, not until 9pm. Awake at 1 until 7.30am!!! Then I had to rush this morning to get her to the clinic. SHe's only put on 50gms this week. The nurse (one I haven't met before, but lovley) told me it was probably becasue I had AF last week and it changes the taste of the milk. I had noticed her being fussy and her nose is a bit stuffy so I'm not too worried, but I would have like it to be a bit more.
Finally she's gone down this afternoon. Here's hoping it lasts long enough for a cuppa on my own.....
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