Thank you so much Elissa. See the story is:
The girl I have met out here (that gave me this news today), is the nicest girl I have ever met. And I truely am happy for her, but I think I am upset that she didn't feel she could tell me earlier and also the fact I won't be sharing the journey with her, if there is anyone I would love to share it with it would have been her. I think she truely deserves this pregnancy, she is the kindest most beautiful person and I am so happy for her.
She told me today that she didn't want to put her worries onto me.
See she went for a scan at 6 weeks, and they couldn't find the baby. But when she was 6 weeks I would have been 3 weeks. I told her our news when I was late 4 weeks and she would have been late 7 weeks. I get that she was so uncertain and she didn't want to say anything, but then she went to her gyno in brissy at 9 weeks and he confirmed there was a baby. So why didn't she tell me then. I would have been 6 weeks. She also said that she didn't want to tell me and upset me because of what has happened to us, but my problems only started at late 8 weeks. So there is atleast 2 weeks she could have told me. But then I also get that she didn't tell me when we had our problems. I am so confused and hurt, but happy for her, and sad all at the same time. Am I making sense.
I have been so good all week and felt like I was moving on and now I feel I back to square one. Just miserable.
Must be time for some more teef hey Elissa?
Lachlan tonight is asleep in his cot! He has slept in his portacot for atleast 9 months now. He was waking in his cot and getting caught so much and there was no way we could do control crying through the nite as it was possible he was stuck, so we just put him in his portacot and really haven't considered putting him in his cot until recently. (his portacot has a foam insert in it) I have been looking online for some bumpers in the last couple of days and good timing it appears, lachlan wants his cot. I went into his room twice within 20mins 2nite as he was crying and somehow he got underneath his foam insert, not sure how, he has never done that before. So I nursed him with his water bottle hanging out of his mouth for a while and then tried putting him in his porta cot again and nope he refused to be in their and was pointing to his cot. So I put him in there with his water bottle and was happy. Had to go in again in 15mins as he was crying, but gave him his water bottle and he is happy again and has been the the last 3/4 hour and I have checked on him and he is fast asleep. I think he wants to be in his cot as a friend was over on Saturday night and we tried to put the kids to sleep together in the same room, she was in his cot and he was in his porta cot - didn't work. But I am thinking he remembers seeing her in there and now he wants to be in there!!! These kids are funny creatures.
So now my challenge is to order this bumper. I want one of those bright bot ones as it is the only one I can get just a plain bright colour that matches his doona. Emailed them the other day to find out where I can purchase online and they haven't responded. Wish they'd hurry up we need one and we need one now!



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