sara - GL with your big decisions too! Sounds like you had a really lovely afternoon, Briley is doing well with her talking, they do look so much older with their top teeth all the way down. I dont think you are a bad mum for having a fun night again, you go girl!

sheree - thankyou for sharing with me. It is so easy to think of all the negatives of situations when you have been through an extremely hurtful time and have so many emotions throwing themselves around in your head. It sounds like you are feeling a bit guilty for having negative feelings towards this woman, just remind yourself that the negative things you are feeling are okay to feel at the moment and they aren't neccesarily the feelings that you really do want to feel for her (i dont know if that made sense to you?!), give yourself a break and be extra kind to yourself for a while while you sort things out in your head. Everything you posted jsut sounded so familiar of my experience after m/c and i really wish you didn't have to go through this again. Huge hugs to you Sheree. Well done Lachlan going back into the cot! Archie has been sleeping in his porta cot since he was 9 months old, he hated the hard wooden bars in his cot, much to my disgust as i only bought the brand new beautiful cot 8 weeks earlier! I cut his foam cot matress to fit into the portacot. We actually gave our cot away 2 weeks ago to friends whose son just had a baby, at least someone will get some use out of it, didn't want to keep it in the shed for years til and if we have another bub cause there will no doubt be new safety standards by then. I gave away heaps of toys and clothes and blankets to the salvos yesterday and it actualy felt good , i didn't get emotional about it like i did a few months ago, kept a few special things though of course. GL getting the bumper, what colours are you after?

shazz - wow! how clever are you!! i cant believe you did that all yourself, well done

kim - great to hear from you, whats Darcy been doing to drive you up the wall, its actually a relief to hear that someones else's child is being, shall we say, less than angellic. GL with the move, so soon!

Well i was just about ready to quit my job as mum last night! Archie went to bed okay at 6pm. He woke crying and upset at 10:30pm. I tried everything i could think of to make him feel better and go to sleep. patted him, rubbed dim, cuddled him, turned the hall light on, left the bedroon door open, gave him a drink of water, changed his nappy, put him in my bed. Looked at my phone and discovered it was 1:50am WTF!! He was wide awake still. i had reached the end of my tether by then, put him in bed turned all the light out shut the bedroom door and went to bed myself. He screamed hysterically for 4 mins, went in and layed him down then walked out, he screamed hysterically to the point i thought he would vomit, and feel asleep after 6 mins....finally. I felt so awful leaving him to scream himself to sleep but i honestly tried every gentle parenting approach first and the cunning little ***** wasn't falling for any of it! Wish me luck tonight.