Shell - I know that feeling of secretly wanting a positive. Bit of a difference in timing now, but when I did my test I sat there waiting the 2 minutes or whatever hinking I'd be a bit disappointed if it wasn't positive because I really didn't think I could possibly be pregnant so soon. I can honestly say when it came up positive the first thing I did was say a naughty word and then burst into tears - not much happiness after all! So much for statistics hey - I'm nearly 38 and DH 37 so fertility should be a serious issue, we DTD TWICE!!!, I was still full time breastfeeding/expressing and STILL I fell pregnant. I know I should be so grateful to be having another baby given I've had 3 losses but I still can't hang on to the fleeting feelings of excitement I'm occasionally getting about Ned. I just want more time with Izzy and to be honest, I want something of a life for myself. I'm more than a little scared that once Ned is born I won't get any time for myself at all. I've also been pregnant for 20 of the last 24 months and I'm so over it - I want my body back and I want to feel comfortable and wear normal clothes, eat a cold ham and brie sandwich and God forbid have half a glass of wine!!

Tan - first things first, ignore everything I've said to Shell!!!! Good luck with your scan today. Can't wait to hear back from you that everything is perfect and your bubby is growing beautifully.