Hey guys dont have much time except to say welcome to Mel and Theo and massive hugs to you Tan. Give youself abreak honey you are a great mum and you are doing so well. Things will fall into place and you will start to feel more confident soon. Lack of sleep will send you balmy so im sure that is all that is up, but maybe you can give your health nurse a call for some advice? As for routine, just enjoy your precious bundle now cause they grow so quickly, while its important to have some things in place just understand that its early days and nothing you do at the moment will ruin anything. Do you have a friend or someone who can visit you and maybe take you out? Big hugs!!!