Oh guys, it's my turn to have a whinge!! I'm having a really terrible start to the morning and it's all just getting far too much. I've been sooo good up until this morning and now I can hardly stop crying. I woke up at 3am with an INCREDIBLY sore boob. The bloody right one that I've been having all the nipple problems with is now absolutely killing me. It's the actual boob now and I'm thinking that I have a blocked duct or even mastiatis (sp?). Its sooo painful and I have no idea what to do. I'll have to give the health clinic nurse a call because I just can't handle it. To make it worse, right when I was trying to express some milk from that boob, to ease the pain a little, Luke did a MASSIVE power spew all over his bassinette (which we borrowed from a friend) and all over himself. I just sat there crying and didn't even know where to start. Eventually when I composed myself, I bathed him and tried to clean up the spew as much as possible. Thank god Mum is coming over today. But just bathing Luke made my boob even worse, it just kills when I move my arm - how am I going to get through this.

Plus, DH is having issues at work - their company was bought out and the new owners have offered him a really crap salary - worse than he's on now, for a much higher role. So he's really down about that and feels like he's letting us down (now that we don't have my salary too). So, I can't even talk to him about my crappy day coz that will just make everything worse, I have to try and be strong for him right now and it's so hard.

Damn it, Luke's crying again - I have to go. Will be back later.

Kelly xxx