oh Vicki its funny you should mention that, but I had to grieve having a girl the first time. I really wanted a boy, of course I loved Matilda instantly... but I still had to grieve the little boy I didn't have. Thats why we found out the gender this time, to give me an opportunity to grieve again if needed (and it was...).

I'm amazed at the moment that I'm holding together... I've definatley had my moments this past week, even today... but compared to PND I'm going great mentally.