ok - now that all makes sense. so much going on Christy. sometimes it feels like your on a rollercoaster ride that never seems to end - well I know that is how I am feeling at the moment! Thanks for letting me know what is happening. I have been wondering how your mum was doing. not too good by the sound of it. sometimes when life throws your lemons, its bloody hard to even want to make lemonade eh.... right at the moment all I want to do is throw the lemons back, and say STOP! Hang in there girl, one day at time is the only day you can live.