Oh Nelly, what you wrote is exactly how i've found myself thinking. I think your thoughts are more common than you realise, i know thats not always helpful. not to sound full of myself or anything, but if you want to chat about anything, let me know. i've so been there...wasted years of my life on the same mental bullsh*t. we can be our own worst enemies, we women.
Gigi - sorry to hear about you and DH, i hope you can sort it out. do you think moving out will help? is there some sort of common trigger for these arguments?

Me - well, i'm 1cm dilated. Dr tried to do stretch and sweep - but, like with evie, it was too painful so he stopped. Have had a bit of bleeding since then, but i am quite sensitive. i was considering asking my doc to whisper sweet nothings to make the internal a little easier but thought against it lmao
so anyways, should be in the next couple of days hopefully. i've got an appt for next week so if it hasnt happened then we'll work something out - i'm happy with that.
off to do some food shopping and keep myself busy!
ciao lovelies
xx