I had a mini meltdown over the weekend over M's BF! I just feel like it's never really worked well but at the same time I've had some wonderful moments BF and there was a time when M wouldn't take the bottle at all. Anyway, I've decided to stop expressing. It can take me an hour or more to get anything coming out and then only get 10 to 50mls. It's such a lot of work for not much milk. And I'm going to drop the dream feed finally. So fingers crossed it won't change her sleep. I talked to M's paed today and she seemed happy with her current weight gain and said she sounds like she's doing great, so that helped me feel better today. Also she said it would be fine to drop that night feed. So I'll start with those changes for now and see what happens.

I also hate that M now throws tantrums when she wants something and can't have it, which is really annoying! I either have to give it to her, distract her or cuddle her for a while. Is everyone else's bubs doing this?

csab - I hope you are better soon. And yes I'm trying hard now to concentrate on the fact that I think M is doing well! Rather than listen to people telling me to fatten her up.

belfie - Sounds like you are very clucky. Possibility of some news soon?? I hope X sleeps better tonight.

Sami - I hope Z's time at child care goes well. And I hope you cope OK without him.

amy - Hello! Good to hear from you. I hope your DH is feeling better soon and the complications with Bethany's labia can be sorted.