annat - I reckon if I have a third it'll be a girl. 3 girls, geez, poor Heath when they're teens!!

shell - you should see our gas bill each quarter! We have gas hot water and stove top, and it's VERY expensive. Then on top of that we have our electricity bill, which is massive in summer when we have the air conditioners on 24/7.

shar - you have done such an amazing job b/f Ambah for so long. Good on you, you should be proud of that achievement. Never mind what other people think is appropriate. When they're babies, who do you listen to...your own mind. People always say things like 'she doesn't seem fat enough, maybe she needs a top up of formula', or 'maybe she needs formula at night to sleep through'. But most breastfeeding mothers don't listen to that, and continue breastfeeding. Well it's the same now. YOU know what is best for her. And as her mother, it is up to YOU when you decide that there is no more booby. And I believe when you have truly made up your mind, then you will be able to wean her with ease. Until now, I don't think you've been ready. Each time you've attempted to wean her, you've had your doubts about whether you're reading to or not. And that's not helping the situation. You need to feel 100% ready to do this. And when you do, stand your ground.
I know you long for a decent night sleep, and you will get it, one day. Until then, you are doing the best thing by Ambah to still be breastfeeding her.
So sending you big your way.