Kylie - Yep Darcy is what I will call my next daughter.
Maz - come on woman test already!

Well Im sitting here with puffy eyes and a headache. The shyte hit the fan last night with Dh and we had a huge row over his involvement in this family. Its really been building up or awhile but we had HIS friends over lastnight and I cooked pizza for them all and as usual I get attitude from him and mess in my house. Then Jett started screaming and nothing made him happy so I gave him to DH who promptly put him aside and haphazardly shoved a bottle in his mouth, then gave him back when it didnt work. I got so mad I exploded and just ranted about everything I could think of, but mostly about his non-effort in raising his son. Then one of his friends started lecturing me on the way children feel and think (mind you he has none bar neices and nephews) and said that it takes Dads years to bond with their kids and that kids dont care until their older whether their parents bond with them or not. I think its a total load off bull. Sure most Dads have to work at bonding with their kids, we're lucky enough to automatically get it, but it has to start when their born or by the time theyre at an independent stage MUM is going to be the universe and Dad will be nothing.
Anyway long story short Dh said a few alarming things to me and I ended up ringing up MIL to just vent and get a 2nd opinion. In the end I decided to leave and Dh said he wont stop me but I'd better be ready to leave with nothing and have a custody fight on my hands, because he will tell the courts Im a psycho.

This morning though, I *THINK* I vaguely remember him kissing me goodbye in my sleep and saying "Love you" so who knows WTF is going on now.

Im going to research my options though, I just cant do this anymore. The only thing stopping me apart from the fact I love Dh and KNOW he is better than this, is that I have no furniture, car or money.

So if Im MIA for awhile dont worry.