maz, sending you a big hug....i sort of know what you feel, when we had caitys U/S we were sure we had blue bits in there, and i desperatly wanted them as well, ( with my boys not living with me and all) and we both in a state of shock when it was a girl, craig was soooooo disappointed, but it only took 24 hours to get over it, so i hope you are ok with it and its sinking in. i really hope your doing ok....now send some blue dust my way!!