Noni have you checked out with Centrelink/Family Assistance Office what childcare benefit percentage they would give you? When we had DD1 Centrelink paid 90% of my childcare fees meaning I only had to pay less than $1 per hour she was in care (Centrelink pays direct to the CC provider so you only pay the gap each fortnight). It might be more affordable than you think, even if it's only one day/half day a week. Sorry I'm not being nosy but i remember what it's like having to count every penny and it sounds like you need that time like I do (I've never had family to look after my kids either).