hi girls, how are we all?
well i got a text message yesterday warning about the extreme weather conditions for today, so decided to evacuate early and here i am looking out the window at rain and cold
oh well, better to be safe than sorry i guess.
pap- bad bad girl telling me about babys got style. where do you think i'll be heading next???
lewis is reacting really well to jimmy. he keeps trying to shove a dummy in his mouth and loves to cuddle and kiss him. it seems to have co-incided with lewis going through a real period of independence iykwim? i've noticed now that whenever i take him somewhere he is way more interested to hang around with other people more than me - like when we're at dad's- he follows dad around everywhere and wants to be involved with everything dad's doing but doesn't really care so much what i'm doing, if that makes sense? i think it's great cos it leaves me to feed jimmy. lewis is just turning into such a little boy now, i feel like he's growing up so quickly!
sherie- your day out sounds nice. yes my milk came in yesterday and i thought i was going to pass out from the extreme pain. you have seriusley never seen bigger harder boobs in your life. i can't wear a bra or anything. my dad has just headed down to the shops so i've asked him to buy me some big loose pyjamas from sussan to wear for the next few days so i can just lounge around comfy and breastfeed. yes i have been co-sleeping, not much sleeping has been going on though he spent all saturday night just sucking and sucking to get the milk through. i was exhausted and falling asleep sitting up. i know i keep forgetting how young he is, lewis was exactly the same the first couple of weeks but you forget you know? he just seems to be having trouble sleeping flat on his back- he wants to be more upright...anyway...i'm perservering with it all, i know breastfeeding is hard to establish but well worth it in the end. thanks so much for all your support and help, it's a hard and emotional time with a newborn.
jaz- i don't think my milk comes out too fast, i don't really know! i know he's getting lots though from all his wet dirty nappies.
you nearly had me crying when you were talking about your grandma- you are such a sweetaheart.
mm- oh i really really hope it's not the pox you poor thing having to worry about that now!
what did you end up doing about your hair for the wedding? what is the weather supposed to be like on sat?
i'm going to sneak into the shower quickly now while dad has taken lewis to the shops and jimmy is having a nap xoxo
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G, LOL at your poor boobies! Did you end up getting the amby hammock or not? that is supposed to be really good for that sort of thing - Christy used to have one end propped up so they were on a bit of a recline and it helped with the belly pains. I suppose with your being so full, he's getting all this milk and his belly is just too full kwim? Plus if you have a lot, he's likelyto only get the foremilk, which can cause a few belly troubles. Express a little bit off first and see if that makes a difference. You will both have the hang of it in no time - even though you've done this before Jimmy is a different baby so you might need to try a few things to find out what works. So are you going home today? I think the biggest worry was the wind - even up here we have an alert out for gale force winds, but so far it's overcast and only mildly windy. We weren't taking any chances though and 'battoned the hatches' yesterday JIC.
hi sherie, yes i've got the amby hammock but so far it's been a bit of a fizzer! lol
we put him in it but he hated it, and he's just so tiny, i honestly thought it was going to swallow him up! i will try it again but i thought maybe i should wait a couple of weeks till he's not so fragile. he just looks like a little baby possum atm ....and it's freaking us out cos lewis looked like a wombat! i did express a little yesterday, but then i didn't want my boobs to go into overdrive and start superproducing iykwim? the boobs have def settled a lot more today though- i think by about thursday they should be fine. he had a great feed this morning and is napping in lewis' little lounge chair atm, in a semi sort of upright position. he seems happy so i'll leave him. we actually have one of those rainforest cradle swings packed away so i've asked dh to get it reday and set it up cos i think he's gonna love that.
i'll probably head home this arvo, i'll just wait and see if all this hoo-ha eventuates into anything. i rang dh and he reckons it's a bit gusty up there so i guess we'll see.
pap- i went to babys got style and i have to say i wasn't overly impressed with the boys' stuff- you were totally looking at girls' stuff though weren't you???? you are so busted!!! LOL
well first of all, i have a small confession to make....
i ended up, after much discussion with ob and dh..getting induced. i didn't want to tell you all in case it didn't lead to anything, as she said that if it didn't work she would send us home and we didn't want to get anyone's hopes up so we decided not to tell anyone.
i really didn't want to go to 42weeks again and i was starting to get very anxious about this baby's size.
so..on wednesday we dropped lewis off at dad's at about 2pm and headed to the hospital at 3pm. we got to the birth suites and we were the only couple there so they gave us the best room- massive in size with its own private big birthing bath. awesome!!!
the midwife came in and applied the first lot of gel to my cervix at about 4pm. justin then went out to the newsagents to get some magazines to keep us occupied. the midwife loved me and satand talked crap to me for about an hour! her kids went to the same school as me so she was sitting there *****ing about it all and didn't want to leave me. justin returned with 2 magazines for me and 3 for him typical lol
we basically just sat and talked, watched the biggest loser and farmer wants a wife...they brought through a tour of pg ladies and their partners to check out the birthing suites as part of their birthing classes and i was sitting on the fitball laughing and watching tv, must have completely freaked them out i reckon!
anyway..basically nothing happened at all. the ob came to check on me a few times but there was nothing to report. a second lot of gel was applied at 11pm.
we tried to go to sleep but i couldn't sleep at all- i was starting to get some serious pains and niggling iykwim? they weren't serious contractions, but enough to stop me sleeping. we decided to start using the tens machine and it actually really helped me. i think i probably got about 1.5hours sleep in the end. the ob came in at 7am, checked me- nothing had happened again and applied a 3rd lot of gel- said she'd come back at 1.30pm when we would have to make a decision about what to do....
justin and i basically just sat there again for the whole morning doing nothing. i got a little bit of sleep but not much. i really couldn't feel anything happen and started to get quite upset. my friend rang me and we talked for an hour or so, i was getting period pain but nothing really. at about 12pm my doula rang me to see what was going on and if we wanted her to come in. i basically told her not to bother as we were either going to be heading home or in discussions about a c-section after 1.30pm. i wasn't happy at all, i was really hoping that the gels would get things going and it was clear that it wasn't going to happen.....
at 1.30pm the ob came in, she did a ve and said you're at 3cm!! i couldn't believe it. she then broke my waters and i said to justin- we're having the baby today!! after we'd convinced ourselves we were going home- it was on!!!
she then left us to it and said she'd be back to check and that she'd leave us with the midwives for a while. the contractions started coming on really thick and fast after that. there was no midwife in sight, apparantely a few other women had come in and were actually labouring by then, so we sort of got left alone. at one point a midwife came in and said 'are you guys ok? i've got this down as being your third baby right?' umm no!!! wtf??
after a while justin took matters into his own hands and got the gas out- he knew exactly where it was and how it worked as he'd enjoyed it so much last time
i was having contractions and justin and i were sharing the gas for a few hours- i was in a lot of pain, he was in a cloud of stonedness lol. a midwife came in about 5pm or so and helped me into the bath and i was in the bath for a few hours having major painful contractions!! i thought i could feel his head smashing into the front of my pelvis, it just felt like something was wrong you know? like he couldn't get down there. i was saying to justin 'he's just too big, he's bigger than lewis'. justin was saying- 'you're doing really well, you can do it- here have some more gas, i'll have some too!"...
i started to relax a little bit in the bath..and started thinking 'ok, i can do this' i thought in my head i was probably about 7cm by now?......
ob came in probably at 8pm and i got out of the bath so she could check me. she did a ve and said you're still 3cm and the head is anterior. i was absolutely devestated. after hours of pain, nothing had happened. she said to me, maybe you should consider having an epidural so you can relax a bit and we can give it a chance to come down. i was more than happy to have the epidural by this stage. she called the anthesitist.
10mins later a funny little guy came in cracking jokes and gave me the epi. i lay down on the bed and felt my legs going numb. i was glad not to be having painful contractions anymore but i started feeling like absolute crap. i could hardly talk and my legs felt weird like massive dead logs hanging off me. before i knew it i was shaking uncontrollably and couldn't stop throwing up, i felt absolutely dreadful and started to just lose it mentally. finally someone checked my blood pressure and they realised that it had dropped which is why i was feeling so bad. they put some anti-nausea stuff in my drip and i slowly started feeling a lot better.i was begging them to just give me a c-section and get the f###ing thing out!! the ob said- "i can give you a c-section if you want, but you are going to be so ****ed off if this baby comes out and it's small'. she was right of course...'she was saying to me, you can do this vaginally, you can do it'.
justin stepped in at this point and was saying to me 'if you have a c-section it won't be over. you'll still be in pain in 2 weeks, you just gotta perservere now' i listened to him, i have no idea why!! and thought 'ok, i can do it. i don't want a c-section.'
i've gotta go- lewis is back- sorry this has turned into a novel! it was supposed to be brief
i'll come back for part 2 later xoxo
Don't apologise for being induced - I know how much this was playing on your mind and heck, you still haven't been able to talk about Lewis' birth, so that alone tells me how much you are still harbouring from that kwim? At the end of the day you have to do what you have to do to have the unhindered birth you want I will stay tuned for part 2, but OMG I had to laugh at Justin!
Don't apologise for being induced - I know how much this was playing on your mind and heck, you still haven't been able to talk about Lewis' birth, so that alone tells me how much you are still harbouring from that kwim? At the end of the day you have to do what you have to do to have the unhindered birth you want I will stay tuned for part 2, but OMG I had to laugh at Justin!
Rainy - all power to you sister! Am loving the story unfolding. Like Trill OMG I am laughing at J. Sounds like he came through with the support and the direction you needed when you needed it though!
Rainy- am loving the story!!! and J is hilarious!!!!! your ob sounds fantastic!
ps ha ha ha at detenctive rainy with the oobi stuff - i did like the boys though you are right there wasnt that much. though i like the little red and blue overalls and also the bear jacket. i didnt say i had bought much.....
You didn't need to say it PP! Ha! We're onto you .
ETA - LOL that reminds me of the time I made some comment about girl guides and quick-eyed Trill twigged straight away we were having a pink party. LOL
he spent all saturday night just sucking and sucking to get the milk through. i was exhausted and falling asleep sitting up. i know i keep forgetting how young he is, lewis was exactly the same the first couple of weeks but you forget you know? he just seems to be having trouble sleeping flat on his back- he wants to be more upright...anyway...i'm perservering with it all, i know breastfeeding is hard to establish but well worth it in the end. thanks so much for all your support and help, it's a hard and emotional time with a newborn.
you poor thing having to worry about that now!
I will stay tuned for part 2, but OMG I had to laugh at Justin!
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