ok...jimmy's birth...i'll keep it brief-

well first of all, i have a small confession to make....
i ended up, after much discussion with ob and dh..getting induced. i didn't want to tell you all in case it didn't lead to anything, as she said that if it didn't work she would send us home and we didn't want to get anyone's hopes up so we decided not to tell anyone.
i really didn't want to go to 42weeks again and i was starting to get very anxious about this baby's size.

so..on wednesday we dropped lewis off at dad's at about 2pm and headed to the hospital at 3pm. we got to the birth suites and we were the only couple there so they gave us the best room- massive in size with its own private big birthing bath. awesome!!!
the midwife came in and applied the first lot of gel to my cervix at about 4pm. justin then went out to the newsagents to get some magazines to keep us occupied. the midwife loved me and satand talked crap to me for about an hour! her kids went to the same school as me so she was sitting there *****ing about it all and didn't want to leave me. justin returned with 2 magazines for me and 3 for him typical lol
we basically just sat and talked, watched the biggest loser and farmer wants a wife...they brought through a tour of pg ladies and their partners to check out the birthing suites as part of their birthing classes and i was sitting on the fitball laughing and watching tv, must have completely freaked them out i reckon!
anyway..basically nothing happened at all. the ob came to check on me a few times but there was nothing to report. a second lot of gel was applied at 11pm.
we tried to go to sleep but i couldn't sleep at all- i was starting to get some serious pains and niggling iykwim? they weren't serious contractions, but enough to stop me sleeping. we decided to start using the tens machine and it actually really helped me. i think i probably got about 1.5hours sleep in the end. the ob came in at 7am, checked me- nothing had happened again and applied a 3rd lot of gel- said she'd come back at 1.30pm when we would have to make a decision about what to do....
justin and i basically just sat there again for the whole morning doing nothing. i got a little bit of sleep but not much. i really couldn't feel anything happen and started to get quite upset. my friend rang me and we talked for an hour or so, i was getting period pain but nothing really. at about 12pm my doula rang me to see what was going on and if we wanted her to come in. i basically told her not to bother as we were either going to be heading home or in discussions about a c-section after 1.30pm. i wasn't happy at all, i was really hoping that the gels would get things going and it was clear that it wasn't going to happen.....
at 1.30pm the ob came in, she did a ve and said you're at 3cm!! i couldn't believe it. she then broke my waters and i said to justin- we're having the baby today!! after we'd convinced ourselves we were going home- it was on!!!
she then left us to it and said she'd be back to check and that she'd leave us with the midwives for a while. the contractions started coming on really thick and fast after that. there was no midwife in sight, apparantely a few other women had come in and were actually labouring by then, so we sort of got left alone. at one point a midwife came in and said 'are you guys ok? i've got this down as being your third baby right?' umm no!!! wtf??
after a while justin took matters into his own hands and got the gas out- he knew exactly where it was and how it worked as he'd enjoyed it so much last time
i was having contractions and justin and i were sharing the gas for a few hours- i was in a lot of pain, he was in a cloud of stonedness lol. a midwife came in about 5pm or so and helped me into the bath and i was in the bath for a few hours having major painful contractions!! i thought i could feel his head smashing into the front of my pelvis, it just felt like something was wrong you know? like he couldn't get down there. i was saying to justin 'he's just too big, he's bigger than lewis'. justin was saying- 'you're doing really well, you can do it- here have some more gas, i'll have some too!"...
i started to relax a little bit in the bath..and started thinking 'ok, i can do this' i thought in my head i was probably about 7cm by now?......
ob came in probably at 8pm and i got out of the bath so she could check me. she did a ve and said you're still 3cm and the head is anterior. i was absolutely devestated. after hours of pain, nothing had happened. she said to me, maybe you should consider having an epidural so you can relax a bit and we can give it a chance to come down. i was more than happy to have the epidural by this stage. she called the anthesitist.
10mins later a funny little guy came in cracking jokes and gave me the epi. i lay down on the bed and felt my legs going numb. i was glad not to be having painful contractions anymore but i started feeling like absolute crap. i could hardly talk and my legs felt weird like massive dead logs hanging off me. before i knew it i was shaking uncontrollably and couldn't stop throwing up, i felt absolutely dreadful and started to just lose it mentally. finally someone checked my blood pressure and they realised that it had dropped which is why i was feeling so bad. they put some anti-nausea stuff in my drip and i slowly started feeling a lot better.i was begging them to just give me a c-section and get the f###ing thing out!! the ob said- "i can give you a c-section if you want, but you are going to be so ****ed off if this baby comes out and it's small'. she was right of course...'she was saying to me, you can do this vaginally, you can do it'.
justin stepped in at this point and was saying to me 'if you have a c-section it won't be over. you'll still be in pain in 2 weeks, you just gotta perservere now' i listened to him, i have no idea why!! and thought 'ok, i can do it. i don't want a c-section.'
i've gotta go- lewis is back- sorry this has turned into a novel! it was supposed to be brief
i'll come back for part 2 later xoxo