Babies Born ~ December 2014

[Rosey]

Oh and take care of a house and ensure you and your DD eat!

[Mildez]

How old is your DD Rosey? I don't think I can offer much advice as I am struggling with mine too. Although in some ways I am lucky mine are so spread out. My poor eldest DD gets a lot of chores. I am making a huge effort to reward her for all the help she gives us. I am often screeching at her to do this and that the poor girl. My 2nd DD is been really challenging. I took the 4 to a party today. Big mistake. DD2 argues and picks constantly on DD1 or DD3. I am really fed up with it. DH often takes her but that doesn't really help as I find he rewards her all the time which is nice for her but is having a very negative impact on my relationship with her as I am the one constantly disciplining her.

DS is been a delight. He has had some unsettled days and today he has been on the boob way more then is comfortable which gets a bit tiring but apart from that he is lovely and not a difficult baby. He has also started eyeing me of which is nice. Its taken up until yesterday to really feel he is looking at me. But now he stares at me which is so cute. He definitely knows his mummy and I am his favourite He hardly tolerates anyone else yet. DH feels a bit left out. Said he can't wait until he is older and he can make him happy. He said he really struggles at this age as nothing he does helps him settle. It gets a bit difficult when anything DH does makes him scream the house down.

As for how I feel physically I feel much better today although I still look like a freak. My eyes have bags to match an 80year old. I am not happy with my blood loss. Its still heavy. I have a very dark prune coloured discharge most of the time and still have several gushes of fresh red blood every day. I am worried about it actually. See not sure if I mentioned it before but had an APH which is why I was induced/augmented. They couldn't locate the area of the bleeding although they think it was from my cervix. They were even tossing up a malignancy which freaked me out. I know its extremely unlikely but I am freaking out because 1 I havent had pap smear for ages and 2 because the fresh bleeding is still going on. I am sure I am been paranoid. Just wish I had normal postpartum bleeding and not this bizarre shiat going on.

How are you recovering Rosey?