tasha - massive hugs . you're not doing anything wrong, you're trying everything you can to care for your little marley. sleep deprivation is horrid. some of the spats dh & I have had at 2-3am in the morning prove that... . I really hope things improve for you soon & pop back in when you feel up to it and let us know how you are going. xx

peeks - it has been quiet in here.. . bf has taken another step back, my nips are so grazed, red & sore again. I don't know what im doing wrong, if anything. my little guy has a few white peaks in his mouth, which I thought were teeth (eek!), but mchn thinks their cyst things which apparently come and go. sure look & feel like teeth and im guessing its the reason bf is still hurting me so much . I am going to a bf drop in centre for an hour tomorrow to get some more tips/check latch etc. what I really need is some sort of numbing cream, but im haven't heard of anything like that which is suitable for bf'ing. on a more positive note, night sleeping is going a bit better. ive found that if I feed him every 3-4 hours during the day (which is waking up for now... finally!), then have his last feed at around 11.30pm, in bed by 12.30, he will do a bigger stretch overnight. i'm jealous of your pumping abilities...! might have another try tonight, see if I can get half a feed so at least I can rest one nip for a little bit.

afm - going ok, this bf'ing thing is wearing me down. crying at every other feed from the pain and im not sure how much longer I can keep going. I really want to bf though, so im doing everything I can to keep it up. I just wish my nipples would toughen up & it would stop hurting so much. its so lovely when I get a feed that doesn't hurt. other than that, things are going well. mchn visit yesterday & he has put on 400 grams in 2 weeks, so at least he is getting enough. I think I would be devastated if I was going through all this & he wasn't putting on weight. anyway, better go. might give this pumping thing another go. hope everyone is going well. xx