Hi girls,

Always so quiet in here on the weekends.

I have been mulling over weaning Adrian and would like some insight.

You see my DH is on a major health kick ATM and in the last week has lost nearly 2 kilos. I have gone to the gym a few times and to a few Zumba classes with my mum, not too mention eating a lot less calories since we've made a vow not to eat packaged or most food with artificial preservatives which by default also means less calories. I didnt put on any weight during pregnancy and infact was 2 kilos lighter AFTER being pregnant but i'm still in the overweight range and have not been 100% happy with my fitness for a while now. So i would like to join my husband on his weight loss journey. I am currently 84kgs and 5'7".

The problem is, even after only a fortnight of gyming and eating better i have noticed a significant decrease in my milk production. I usually enjoy feeding Adrian but he often has times where feeding is a huge mission. I have very large breasts and have always had to feed him football style as it is too awkward the normal way. Now he is getting longer he pushes against the back of the chair when i feed him and pulls on my nipples painfully, i can only feed him at home or at a relos places as i basically have to get half undressed to get good attachment, plus use pillows, so feeding in public is way too uncomfortable, awkward and embarrassing. He has also taken to fussing so much with the kicking and such that he swallows a lot of air and so it is a constant battle of feed/burp, feed/burp, feed/burp. So often when i feed him, especially a night, i cant help thinking that it would be much easier to just bottle feed him.

I would love to be able to do proper exercise without having to worry and feel guilty about running out of milk, plus, i figure i can probably lose a significant amount of weight while still on leave until october, since i prob wont have much time or energy after i return to work. I have been breastfeeding 90% of the time (sometimes have to give top up bottles) and for nearly 4 months now.

Is it selfish of me to want to stop breastfeeding and have my body back to myself?