Im here but pretty much only at night, during the day im busy doing sweet F all but for some reason I never have a spare moment to myself. What is up with that?

Went to story time at the Hyperdome LIbrary, its on at 10am for wee little babies and they sing songs and read stories etc. Its so fun. Chase is like in love with the lady who runs it, ive never spoken to her and neither has he but the minute he sees her he is hooked. He cried at me today cos he wanted to stand up and was trying to walk over to her!! She's like a baby magnet. Felt a bit down though which is silly but i can't help it. There was this baby girl who was on her belly then got up on her hands and knees and started bouncing and I was like, 'how old is she?' thinking she must be older than chase, she was seven months too Chase has no interest in doing what that little girl was doing. Also this little girl could clap her hands!! wtf, chase only eats his I know he is supposed to do all these things later but i can't help feeling down that he doesnt do this or that. Ugh i know its silly and i know he is supposed to progress slower, I need a good kick up the butt i think...