Just had to share: Nat is sitting on my lap and she just caught sight of my avvy. She said, "There's me, and you, and there's my sister called Phoebe. And we're in the jungle!" LOL!
that's so cute!
loving the new Av Amy!

have been reading, but, again, not posting. am having some issues with how i'm reacting to things happening IRL and have, once again, withdrawn a little. this past week was particularly bad, and i kinda fell apart (more than once). have been feeling disconnected from C (i think mostly due to the stress of the house hunting etc), and realised after all had happened, that i'd stopped wearing my wedding ring a couple of months ago when i had some dermatitis, and just didn't WANT to put it back on. that realisation was a really HUGE slap in the face - we've been through worse than this! so C and i have been making an effort to talk the issues through. i have been struggling a lot though. yesterday he went to my jewellery box and got ring out and put it back on my finger and told me he didn't want this stuff to drag us apart any more. so i know have that tangible link again. it's been very full on and all over the place, and mostly i can't put it into words. i'm pretty sure E being so unsettled is triggering some of my issues, cos i'm exhausted, but then part of her unsettledness is possibly coming from me being so edgy and stuff - viscious cycle huh?

anyway, the house hunt continues. it's doing my head in. no land lord really wants to rent to a couple where all the income is tied up in a woman of child bearing age apprently. we've also had issues with our cars this week - not sure if i mentioned the great car swap debacle that went on with my bro. he was desperate for a work ute, C wasn't using ours, so he asked if he could buy it. we needed a second car so said no, so he offered to buy us a decent car to swap it with. stupidly, i trusted he would get something E safe and similar value to our ute. meh, why do i continue to trust him? anyway, the piece of cr@p he got for us was just ridiculous. it's taken four months just to get him to get a battery for the damn thing! the SECOND time C drove it (i refuse to put E in it), one of the windscreen wipers broke. i decided, when the house settles, i'd pay out less of our other debt, and buy a cheap SAFE car. sarcastically asked my bro if he knows anyone that can loan us the money for a few weeks, and then let it go. while we were looking at houses today, he rang to say he and SIL had crunched some numbers, they know they owe us money, they can pay for it, when do we need the money. we had an idea of what we wanted, so went and had a look - and found exactly what we wanted about 1000 cheaper than expected - so rang my bro, he said do it. Wednesday we'll have a new car! well, a 12 year old second hand car, but new for us! and safe for E! yay! it's getting re-roadworthied on monday just to make sure, then on wednesday, we'll get our friend/mechanic to check it out again to make sure there is nothing we missed (C being a truckie, i doubt it, but i will ask) - we'll also get K to put the bolt in the back and install the spare carseat for E.