Thanks for the hug Cass, I think it has upset me because a) I was **** hot good in my previous job and here I'm a parttime nobody who now has a 4 month fiasco attached to my name (even though a month ago all indications said fiasco was going to be a shining achievement, before change of supervisors) and b) because writing that blog last year has opened the floodgates and I'm now going through that awkward phase of trying to work out whether my output is objectively good or whether I'm just painfully misguided in ever thinking I could be a writer (for real, instead of in my imagination).