xxhope; I know your struggle and the wanting to BF I just found it too draining in the end my milk wasnt coming in huge amounts and with DS in hosp the only way he ws coming home was if he put on weight and was feeding so I ended up going on formula it was the best move I made though I wished I had BF in the end I had to think of my son and that was the main thing the decsion is yours in the end so take your time and speak to the professionals and weigh it up from there hope all goes well for you love and take care