Thanks guys. I get so caught up in the moment of crying that I forget all the good things. Last night, he tried to talk to mum.

But there is still blood in his poo on & off. Not like if he was constipated, but rather in mucus, so it's coming from his gut lining. I'm booking an appointment with the doctor. It might have something to do with the screaming.

He lays on his change table just fine, but if you put him in his cot, he cries. As long as he's distracted with stuff to look at, he appears fine. If he's bored with what he's looking at - cries. I think part of it could be that I have no idea how to relate to such a little thing. I sing to him & read him books, and dibble utter crap to him, but it feels ... I dunno... odd. I think because when he's not crying, he's staring blankly at the world, I find that really hard to read. Oh! what I would give for a smile!!

Essentially - I think it comes down to my mantra: "You are over-thinking the situation"

I don't know what I'd do without you guys to vent to. All of you a treasures to me. I'd give up all the gold I've mined in my short career to stay friends with all of you. Xx