Hopefully I'll be back for persies a bit later, but wanted to say 'hi' to Emma just before Kyson wakes up.
I love looking at Jades photos on facebook and think she is an absolute doll! My best friend's daughter has similar hair to Jade (slightly shorter, but she's younger too) and has fun putting little clips in it, lol. I don't think you should worry about her weight and other stats. From what I see on fb, she appears to be a very healthy and happy little girl. There are two girls in my mother's group that both have tiny little petite girls as well. One of them is eensy-weensy and starting to stand up and I wonder how her tiny little ankles manage to hold her weight My Kyson seems to be rather quick at things like crawling and walking (and now running! *sigh*), but he's still having between 6-10 breastfeeds a day, wakes 3 hourly overnight for feeds, and hasn't said any words yet. Like jade, he makes "mama" and "dada" sounds, but it's using them as proper words yet. He seems to understand the words though, because if I say "Where's dada?" he'll look towards, or walk to his dad... I'm sure he'll talk in his own time.
As for the PND, there is no way you can blame yourself for that, or for not feeling able to bond with your daughter to begin with. It is a horrible disease and something that you never asked for. My best friend had it with her first child and when she was pregnant with her second she said that she would "chop off her own right foot" if it could guarantee that she wouldn't get it again after the birth. Now that you have bonded with Jade, I'm sure that your relationship with her will get stronger and stronger. It sounds to me like you are doing a wonderful job of being a mummy.
Oh, and I've come to take anything the MCHN's tell me with a grain of salt. I got in trouble from one when I told her we were doing baby-led solids. Kyson was 8 months at the time and I had given him pasta and she told me off because the "chart" said I can't give pasta to him until 9 months... As if 1 month makes some magical difference!!! She also rolls her eyes at me when she asks about his sleeping arrangement and hears that he still co-sleeps for half the night. You don't even want to know her suggestions when she found out he was still waking 3 hourly for feeds. Last visit she asked how his sleeping was going and I just said "he's doing fine" and left it at that. If it doesn't worry me, then why should it worry her?! Ok, I should stop ranting and go get the shopping out of the car before Kyson wakes up. Welcome to our lovely thread!
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